copyrighted by !attitude;darkdegree
right-click is banned @ gunshotx.blogspot
!ATTITUDE, it's personal again.
havee one of an !Attitude designed by us
personally for you, at our skins collection today!

<body>
EVERYTIME
the rain pours down, in words of mine.

Nostalgia .




unspoken .




jukebox .


Yiruma

credits .

Designer: x x x
Image: x
Hosts: x x x
Style: x
Font: x



EVERYTIME
it rains



Tuesday, June 30, 2009
5:41 AM

horay for Triple S ! we did the best ! our hardwork ! our masterpiece ! lol.

yep ; ss501 wins the poll ! yihaa XD


here's the result.



the green one is ss501 and the pink one is Super Junior. and even ss501 got 26% and Super Junior also 26% but the number is different ;D

ss501 oppa ; say thanks to us ! kidding ;p

xoxo, ctrul

Labels: ,



Monday, June 29, 2009
7:05 AM

well ; i just found an amazing poem. totally amazing ! omg omg ~ exactly like what i feel right now :x here's the poem ;


I'm Sorry, I'm Not Sorry
Im sorry for all i've done
Every I love you was my chance to run
Im sorry for all the lies
I guess your trust i had to compromise
Im sorry for never being there
Bet you felt like i never cared
Im sorry for all the games
Every excuse was pretty lame
Im sorry for keeping my words locked
Musta seemed like i just kept you blocked
Im sorry for every hurtful word
And never cleaning your burn
Im sorry for all my wrong
So here i sit writing you this apology song
Im sorry for every false kiss
Which lead to a night of fake bliss
Im sorry if i left you feeling alone
So you could get stoned
But hear me when i say
Im not sorry for acting this way
Because of the damaging games you'd play
Shyann Court (Dec.20,1988 / Nürnberg)
such a nice poem, huh?
lov, ctrul

Labels:



2:48 AM

yihaa! just bought 2 new books yesterday ;) and i've finished one. but the other one is kinda "old-people-book" so it must be take a long time to finished. now concentrated to vote for ss501 as the best fan club! the poll will closed tonight. aww! i thought it will be closed tomorrow :x


well ; the first book is :


The Way to Live Forever





Ways to Live Forever is the diary/scrapbook Sam compiles during the last two months of his life. Reading it is less like reading a novel than watching an exceptionally brilliant TV documentary. The text is punctuated by ephemera: drawings, tickets, and especially lists. Lists not only of those eternally unanswerable questions, but also of facts. Sam likes facts. He believes, touchingly, that they are the opposite of questions.


A different kind of list gives the book its structure. "List No. 3: Things that I want to do" ranges from the entirely reasonable ("Go up down-escalators and go down up-escalators"), via the barely achievable ("Ride in an airship"), to the impossible ("Go up in a spaceship and see Earth from space"). I don't want to give away the plot, but I have to say that all these wishes are granted, one way or another.


Killing children is something that writers indulge in from time to time. It's a high-risk business. If the crime is aggravated by mawkishness, the penalties can be severe. Passing sentence on Dickens, Oscar Wilde famously asserted that "One must have a heart of stone to read the death of Little Nell without laughing." In seeking to evade the charge of sentimentality, other writers have been sententious, offering pseudospiritual comforts, such as death being part of "a cycle" of some sort. (It is almost a rule, these days, that in children's literature death has to be presented as life-affirming, or even life-enhancing.) Beyond all this, of course, is the reasonable suspicion that killing children is the easiest way for writers to squeeze their readers' tear ducts. A surprising number of us think that a good cry is an essential part of a good read.


Knowing all this, as she obviously does, Sally Nicholls has been either courageous or reckless to write, as her first novel, the story of a boy who dies of leukaemia. And she would seem to have made matters even more difficult for herself by writing in the first person, which means, among other things, that her narrator cannot be around to write the last scene. Does she get away with it? Yes, she does. She knows what the traps are, steps into them, and steps out again unscathed.
In all first-person narratives the voice is, obviously, everything. Sam's is the voice of an unexceptional boy transformed by the enormity of what awaits him, and getting it to ring true is a hugely impressive achievement. I should mention (through gritted teeth) that Nicholls was only 23 when she wrote Ways to Live Forever. Her publishers have very high hopes for her, and on the strength of her debut they seem entirely justified. This is an elegant, intelligent, moving and sometimes even funny book. Young readers (and brave parents, and teachers) will love it.



credit :
http://www.guardian.co.uk/



and the second book is :

NEXT





Next has plenty of ideas and discussions on the moral and financial implications of human genetic engineering, but none of them add up to a cohesive and involving story. The chapters are short and crisp, some moments even thrilling, but it’s hard to care where the story is going when there are so many thinly thought-out plots and characters.



With a more straightforward and focused approach, Crichton could have created a sharp literary science fiction thriller. One of the most intriguing ideas in Next involves the dilemma of humans stubbornly declaring their right to free will while desiring to blame their mistakes on genes (which ironically disregards free will if we merely act a certain way simple because it’s in our genetic makeup). This idea could have then been shaped around the story involving Alex and her son fleeing cross-country because a court system has ordered that a biotech firm has a right to their genes (regardless of Alex’s choice) so they can manufacture a potentially million dollar cure for cancer.



With his previous works and a few tidbits in Next, Crichton has proven he has the ability to write compelling science fiction with intelligent hypotheses and authentically human characters. Next is just proof he wasn’t born with those genes – he still has to choose to write that way.



credit : www.bestsellers.about.com


well, the second book such a "hard" book, right? lol. my sis told me ; "mesti yoh tiap kali ke toko buku ini. kamu beli novel2 'berat' ; aku beli komik *FYI, SHE IS MY OLDER SISTER* terus titi beli buku pengetahuan" LMAO.


arghh the vote page is really slow right now! T^T okay, i'll concentrated voting now.



ttyl, ctrul

Labels: ,



Friday, June 26, 2009
1:14 AM

As many have heard about it, (26.06.2009) tomorrow’s episode of KBS Music Bank is going to be really interesting.
Tomorrow’s episode is a sum-up episode of all the popular Kpop hits on all the different charts on KChart for the first half of 2009. Tomorrow’s Music Bank stages include:

  • Wan Seok Hyun & Lee HwiJae ‘Noona I Love You'

  • So Nyeo Shi Dae comeback stage – ‘Tell Me Your Wish’

  • 2NE1 special stage – ‘Umbrella’
  • Girls Generation So Nyeo Shi Dae with ‘Boys Generation’ 2AM, 2PM and Super Junior


  • Rookie dance battle - ChungRim vs AJ vs TaeGoon


  • KWill, Baek Ji Young, Jo Sung Mo with ‘That’s what friends are for’


  • [Special 'Idol Parade'] KARA performing Fin.K.L





  • [Special 'Idol Parade'] SHINee performing HOT




  • [Special 'Idol Parade'] So Nyeo Shi Dae performing S.E.S



  • [Special 'Idol Parade'] 2PM performing G.O.D






  • 2NE1 with ‘Fire’

  • Super Junior with ‘Sorry Sorry + It’s You’






  • KARA with ‘Pretty Girl + Honey’


  • 2PM with ‘Again & Again + I Hate You’


  • Son DamBi with ‘Saturday Night’



  • Davichi with ‘8282′


  • Chung Rim with ‘Step’




  • AJ with ‘Dancing Shoes’

  • TaeGoon with ‘Superstar’

  • 2AM with ‘A Friend’s Confession’




  • SHINee with ‘Juliette’

  • Jo Sung Mo with ‘I was happy’

  • K Will with ‘One drop one second’

  • Baek Ji Young with ‘Like Being Hit’

  • Im Chang Jung ‘It’s being long’

I heard K Chart #1 contestants tomorrow are said to be So Nyeo Shi Dae, Super Junior and 2NE1 !

credit : www.sookyeong.wordpress.com

aww~ i can't wait for Music Bank tonight ! there will be Yesung oppa !

lov, ctrul.



Labels: , , , , , , , , , ,



Thursday, June 25, 2009
11:50 AM

well ; it's already 1.55 AM here.. and i found interesting topic in kim hyun joong international forum. lol it's about 10 things i love about kim hyun joong.. and here's my answer ;

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

well ; i really really confused to pick 10 things i love about him. Cause actually i don't have any reasons ; i just love him.. But okay i'll try

Ten things i love about Hyun Joong ;

10. I love the way you laugh

9. I love the fact that you scares of bugs and insect

8. I love your cute expression when you read manga seriously!

7. I love the fact that you like eat ramen

6. I love your voice which wake me up every morning *i use your wake-up-call*

5. I love it when you say that you always say goodnight before bedtime and would like his future wife to do the same with him every night * I WILL ! I WILL !

4. I love your simplicity

3. I love it when you say that "I wouldn't do the same thing like Yoon Ji Hoo. If i like a girl ; even my friend also like her ; I'll do anything to win her heart" omo omo omo~

2. I love his 4D personality

1. Most of all ; everything you are changed the way I feel about my future.



당신을 사랑합니다, oppa !



xoxo, ctrul.

Labels:



5:57 AM

wohoo~ i'm totally in love with Big Bang's song ; maybe you already know this song. Yep ! Haru Haru (Day after day) ! Well, this kinda old song but i still love it ;) big thanks to Juyeon Kim ; who told me about this song. Anyway, i already decided my favorite Big Bang's member : TOP. Why? Because he's my boyfriend's bestfriend ; Kim Hyun Joong ! lol. Here's the lyric..


HARU HARU
Yeah
Finally I realized
That I'm nothing without you
I was so wrong
Forgive me
Ah ah ah ah -
Padocheoreom buswojin nae mam
Baramcheoreom heundeullineun nae mam
Yeongicheoreom sarajin nae sarang
Munsincheoreom jiwojijiga anha
Hansumman ttangi kkeojira swijyo
Nae gaseumsogen meonjiman ssahijyo say goodbye
Yeah
Nega eobsin dan harudo mot salgeotman gatatdeon na
Saenggakgwaneun dareugedo geureokjeoreok honja jal sara
Bogosipdago bulleobwado neon amu daedabeobtjanha
Heotdoen gidae georeobwado ijen soyongeobtjanha
Ne yeope inneun geu sarami mwonji hoksi neol ullijin annneunji
Geudae naega boigin haneunji beolsseo ssak da ijeonneunji
Geokjeongdwae dagagagijocha mareul geol su jocha eobseo aetaeugo
Na hollo gin bameul jisaeujyo subaekbeon jiwonaejyo
Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru
Mudyeojyeogane
Oh girl
I cry cry
Your my all (say goodbye)
Gireul geotda neowa na uri majuchindahaedo
Mot boncheok hagoseo geudaero gadeongil gajwo
Jakkuman yet saenggagi tteooreumyeon amado
Nado mollae geudael chajagaljido molla
Neon neul geu saramgwa haengbokhage neon neul naega dareun mam an meokge
Neon neul jageun miryeondo an namgekkeum jal jinaejwo na borandeusi
Neon neul jeo haneulgachi hayake tteun gureumgwado gachi saeparake
Neon neul geureoke useojwo amu il eopdeusi
Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru
Mudyeojyeogane
Nareul tteonaseo mam pyeonhaejigil (nareul itgoseo saragajwo)
Geu nunmureun da mareulteni yeah (haruharu jinamyeon)
Charari mannaji anhatdeoramyeon deol apeultende um
Yeongwonhi hamkkehajadeon geu yaksok ijen
Chueoge mudeodugil barae baby neol wihae gidohae
Dorabojimalgo tteonagara
Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara
Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie
Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara
Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae
Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae
Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae
Haru haru
Mudyeojyeogane
Oh girl
I cry cry
Your my all
Say goodbye bye
Oh my love
Don't lie lie
Yo my heart
Say goodbye
DAY AFTER DAY
Leave
Yeah, Finally
I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~
[Verse 1; GD + TOP]My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind(Say goodbye)
[GD Rap]Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
[TOP Rap]What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[Chorus]Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...
[Verse 2; SR + DS]If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly[GD]
Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
[TOP] You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
[Chorus]Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
[Bridge; DS + SR]I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by[YB]
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
[Chorus]Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye

ttyl, ctrul.

Labels: , ,



Tuesday, June 23, 2009
7:59 AM

woogh. i'm so tired :x just get back after swimming with my grandma and lil' brother. feels soooo different when i swim with my buddies ; today is "real" swim lol. btw, today i read --again-- miiko comics !! aaa i lovee it~ since i was young ; i always love miiko!always makes us laugh out loud, eh? ;p
for you who doesn't know about hi, miiko! --poor you!-- *the real title is Kocchimuite Miiko*; here's the story :




YAMADA Miiko, our main character, is a 5th-grader.






Her best friends are SHIMURA Mari and OGAWA Yuuko (Yukko). Yukko’s boyfriend is SATOU Kenta.










SATOU is friends with EGUCHI Tappei, a boy who called Miiko, shortie.












YOSHIDA Ikuya is another boy that likes Miiko. lol



Miiko has a brother named Mamoru. Her mother works as a manga editor for Ocia (this is a pun from Ciao, the magazine where KM is being serialized) and her father is a salaryman. Since both parents work, Miiko and Mamoru share responsibilities with their house chores. But usually, Mamoru will take the responsibility to do more chores since Miiko is the typical laid back older sister. Despite that, throughout the book, you will see that Miiko loves her family so much.
Miiko’s story life revolves around the school and their two-bedroom house. At school, she is the constant target of being verbally-bullied by Tappei. It is funny to read and laugh at how Miiko and Tappei’s relationship is going. Obviously they enjoy each other’s company (though undeclared like Yukko-and-Kenta’s), but like any other school grader (and perhaps adults who read this, too) they had fights and quarrel very often. *smile* Meanwhile at home, their bedroom is the subject of a constant debate between Mamoru and Miiko. Both share the same room, however, Miiko doesn't share her roommate's frustration over being clean or tidy. XDDD
Meanwhile, as the story developes further, Tappei is easily annoyed and insecure whenever Miiko hangs out with YOSHIDA. He often interrupts the time that Miiko is alone with YOSHIDA and ends up making Miiko angry for being a pest. Some people suggest to Miiko that Tappei is rude to her, but she would deny it.
True, from our point of view, what Tappei is doing to Miiko can be considered rude, but he also—like Miiko said—has his own good attributes. Once he takes the responsibility and apologizes to their homeroom teacher when a vase was broken. It was actually Miiko who shattered it. And when Miiko forget her underwear and her house keys at the same time, it was Tappei who saved her from further embarrassment.
This manga also talks about friendship and family. Miiko and Mari have many differences, but Yukko is always there to make them think clearly. That doesn’t mean they are really dependant on Yukko, there’s always time when Yukko is confused and can not make up any decision and her two best friends help her. Uniquely enough, the stories portrayed show awareness about these issues: pet, people with bad intentions to children, the joy of giving, respect, and countless messages. I recommend this series to anyone who enjoys the values of life and friends, young or old.
The original series was titled ‘Miiko Desu’ (MD) and was in another magazine called Pyong-pyong (Boink-boink), which has been discontinued. At MD, Miiko is a 4th grader, and YOSHIDA doesn’t show up that often. MD is published in Indonesia with the title ‘Namaku Miiko’ (My name is Miiko!) currently at volume 4. Meanwhile KM is titled, ‘Hai Miiko!’ (Hi, Miiko!). There are also some spin-off titles like ‘Best of Miiko’ (latest here is vol. 3) and ‘Miiko in Edo Period’. All are great collections. And as a plus: this manga won the Shogakukan Award in 1996 in Children's category. The drawing maybe cute and simple, but the story runs deep into our heart.

credit : http://community.livejournal.com/mangacast/533839.html

*sigh* well, whenever i read miiko. i always remember this boy. his name? secret! lol. i already found my own Tappei ; he's just like Tappei for me. We fight oftenly and he also shy to confess his feelings *in the end, HE DID IT!* clapclapclap lol. but i'm not Miiko :p People thought we're a couple. LMAO. and some people told me i'm STUPID that i "refuse his request" . but trust me ; we can't be couple. being friend is the best choice for us at that time. i still remember ; one night he called me while i'm reading Miiko. then i laughed out loud *as usual* when read it, then he asked me why ; i told him "I AM READING". then he answered : "MIIKO?" haha. he knows me better than others :) i told him : you're such looks like Tappei ! even your face and the way you talks ; hey stupid Tappei !! lol then he answered : okay then, it's okay i'm Tappei, but you have to be Miiko? *spechless* Hello, stupid Tappei! How are you? I bet you're okay right now. Because --just like you said to me-- Tappei never cry, right? lol-- If someday you read this post ; then you'll know that i don't regret my decision! Byeee :)

xoxo, ctrul.



Monday, June 22, 2009
8:38 AM


Real Name: Kim, Jong Woon
Screen Name: Ye Sung

Date of Birth: August 24, 1984 *i'm 25th august !!

Hometown: Cheonan, South Korea

Voice Type: Baritone
Kim Jong Woon, born on August 24, 1984, better known by his stage name Ye Sung, is a former DJ, occasional actor, singer, and a member of Korean boy band Super Junior.In 1999, Ye Sung made his first television appearance in a local music event. Two years later in 2001, he auditioned in the Starlight Casting System and scraped through the contests with his "artistic voice". He was then recruited as a trainee under the talent agency SM Entertainment.


credit : superjuniorprofile.blogspot.com



Name : Minho (珉豪)
Birthday : 1991. 12. 9
Group : SHINee
Company : SM Entertainment
Height : 181.0cm
Hobbies : Soccer, Basketball
Expertise : Acting, English, Chinese
Experience : Hasangbek '2008/09 F/W Pret-a-Porter Busan',
'Seoul Collection F/W 08-09' Model
credit : angelicheartx91.blogspot.com





Name: 영웅재중 Hero / 英雄在中 Young Woong Jae Joong

Also known as: Hero Jae Joong

Real name: 김재중 / Kim Jae Joong

Profession: Singer and actor

Birthdate: 1986-Jan-26

Birthplace: Chungnam, South Korea

Height: 180cm

Weight: 63kg

Star sign: Aquarius

Blood type: O

Talent agency: SM Entertainment
credit : wiki.d-addicts.com
Yesung ; Minho ; Jaejoong
arghhhh you're so cool, oppa!!
*faint*
nice picture, huh?
do you know why do i write posting about them?
THEY WEAR THE SAME SHIRT !
i think that shirt given by SM Entertainment?
and make me wants that shirt, too..
:x
lov, ctrul.


Sunday, June 21, 2009
1:07 PM

well.. i have to say that this is my 3th blog. i've made 2 blogs before ; but i forgot the password. i'm such a short-minded person T^T anyway, let's put the past behind and start something new lol.

it's already 3.13 am here. and i still stuck on youtube ; looking for ss501's videos. fyi, i'm their BIG FANS! esp. hyun joong and young saeng. and after watched happy together this afternoon, i also like kyu jong lol. they're all such a talented person ;)

last night i dreamed of yesung --member of super junior-- and when i wake up ; i feel like he's my future husband! lol well this might sounds crazy ; but.. that's me! really, sometimes i also feel so silly! oh damn ; why did you have to be that cute and why did you have killer-smile, oppa?!

well i have to sleep right now! because my grandma is coming and i doubt she will let me oversleep tomorrow. arghh don't wake me up before 1 pm, please? :(

xoxo, ctrul

Labels: , , , ,